i realized today that i have become obsessed with what i look like in the last few months. i fear its going to become unhealthy if i don’t watch myself. i believe this is the reason i feel so fat an ugly, i’ve been scrutinizing every little detail about myself because i’m not good enough to be around myself.
my hours on the desk were abruptly cut from about 40 hours a week to maybe 6. that is awesome, thanks for telling me the day before to prepare me for this massive drop of income. i love it, i’m not totally fucked or anything right now.
i sat at the computer to write this god awful english paper i have but then got side tracked listening to a webinar from behindthechair.com and ended up trying to fix my broken vibrator, which i ended up mutilating, BUT the parts that worked before still work. i was very tempted to take apart another dying vibrator and try to combine the parts to make one super vibrator but i am going to give up on that dream.